my touts

2007-04-15T09:39:00.000-07:00

hmm this shall be a happy post.
back from weekend activity.
yupss my partner is my dear beo. kuo qiang.
hahah i rmb i told him i wish my partner was him.
hey bro i hope ididnt let you down.
though i was quite fierce to you on that day.
hmm yupps i love my kids.
hahaha cute peeps.

hmm yups i no longer think of you as much as before.
i am glad that i starting to let go. is it because of that special someone?
i am not sure myself. hahah
hmm but i hope its real this time hehes.
confused? actuallly me myself dunno what i am talking about.
hehes
till then...

loves
feli

2007-04-11T11:30:00.001-07:00

mood(3/10)-dreary

dunno how to start or express my feeling...
you know what??

you really sux!! How did you manage to make me cry!!!! i dun believe.
i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you.

-feli

2007-04-10T07:48:00.000-07:00

mood: 9/10( jubilant)
good news its gonna be a happy post again. a blissful one.
i enjoyed myself in the camps.
all the emptyness has been washed away.
i love my friends. those who accompanied me through out the camp.
i love thems lot. include jane, yi wen and san.
you guys made my day.
yupps gl for weekend?
hmm happy yet sad?
wonder who i pairing up with?
hope its not him..pls god !! dun torture my heart.
i may not be able to take it anymore.

yes i hope it will end after weekend . till then....

2007-03-29T10:02:00.001-07:00

Suddenly had the urge to blog again. i never deny that i was touched after reading what you have written. but i still miss him like before. can't get myself to sleep now. perhaps i shall try counting sheeps . yah thats lame i admit. goin back to school for one last enrolment. after which is FO camp. Guess it would be fun knowing more people and making friends. Can i clear the emptyness in my heart? i wish i could. Watching tokyo juliet agains..yupss i like wu chun . he is such a pretty boy hehes.

i thought of you at 12.59 am -feli

2007-03-29T08:03:00.000-07:00

mood:gleeful(8.5/10)
This shall be my second post. fortunately it is going to be a exultant post. Have you ever heard of a saying" sunshine over rain". i guess i have enjoyed my day today. hmm woke up in the morning at about 11 am. Finally i had a good day rest. i finally experience the fatigue of persuading people for many hours since the last few days of enrolment. guess it was hard for the seniors to persuade us during last year's enrolment too. But i dont deny that it was a pretty fun task. Left my house at 12 plus to meet hui li for shopping. its been ages since i last saw her and of course i missed her very much. we went to bugis for lunch at mos burger , before goin to bugis village to shop. i bought a elegant dress at blossoms as well as a vintage dress, demin shorts and a off shoulder top. Shopping really brings me joy. Its help me to forget all my troubles. Then we proceed to long john for dinner after much shopping. It wasnt suprising that i didnt finish my food again. After dinner, we went to look for huili's shoes. she finally found one at a shop . Then, we took a bus home. Chatted with her about some stuff on our journey home. It was pretty enjoyable talking to her , perhaps she's the one who knows me best.
Till then.....

siging off at 11.28pm
-feli

2005-08-08T02:57:00.000-07:00

mood: dejected( 3/10)

Finally there is a place for me to pour out all my gloominess thoughts. Today is just not my day. I woke up in the morning with a terrible headache and gastric pain. The pain was rather intense that i couldn't have the energy to get of out my bed in that particular moment. I went to the doctor at about 11am and reached school at two plus for enrolment. Enrolment week was fun. Its rather challenging to persuade the freshies to join our freshmen orientation camp. After enrolment , Our GLTs announed the gls for the F.O camp. I did felt a little depressed at that spur of moment. Initially i thought i was dismayed by the GLs results. But it wasn't that simple. The actual reason why i felt disquieted is because of the pact i have made for myself. I felt so chilish for making such an irrational nonsensical pact. Afterall, i still can't denied my feelings for him. Instead , it grew stronger each day. Perhaps the reason why i choose to conceal my feelings is because of my past expriences. Because of that particular incident, its teaches me how to lie not only to myself but also to my friends who care for me. From then , i always hide my feelings. I felt that there no one i can really trust except myself. i refused to let people see the weak side of me, so i always appeared strong in front of them. But deep down my heart, i knew i was controlling my tears. Often, pEOple would notice tears rolled down my eyes, but i always give incongruous excuse to them, just like what happen when san saw the tears in my eyes. I knew the tears were dropped for him. Perhaps i am really rather silly.

Hope i can chase all these emptyness within me after the camp.

signing off at 12.01am

-feli